Honesty Is The Currency Of Love

"Honesty is the currency of love." What do you think about that?  I have a few thoughts swirling around at the thought of it. How true, simple yes.Simple I believe is really the way of life as it makes sense and makes life less complicated. By that I mean, why run around in a world of delusion when you have a choice (in most circumstances) to change that behaviour pattern. I know because the only reason I can share my feelings with you is from experiencing them myself. I thought delusion was a huge psychological quagmire, quicksand and quarantine. It can be, I assure you. Alas then I saw my shrink, who shall remain anonymous- he explained delusion in detail as I took rapid notes. He explained delusion was like seeing a part of the picture  (aka experience) and guessing  its outcome guessing the steps  leading to it.  Never  knowing the details of what and how it happened. A bit like only knowing part of the story say- a constant we struggle with daily.Alas the delusion for me was trying to fill in the blanks w/ out knowing what really happened, having to surmise. It would eat me alive wondering the who arts and how longs, IT HAS A WAY OF MAKING YOU SPIN, REELING OUT OF CONTROL, obsessing over figuring out what happened, how it could be. It is a painful wounded feeling, never satiated it will grab you by the short and curlies and take you over if you let it. The positive reality is  not letting delusion have power over you by refusing to let it. We humans cause much of our grief in needing  answers  to all of our suspicions. I have  managed to get delusion under control by NOT trying to figure the unanswerable out. I was so curious to attain answers much  like a cop doing an interrogation. Conquering delusions of jealousy, guilt or any issue is not easily done, its a continual mental exercise  and after time it gets easier. Start by facing the fact: that some things we shall never find answers to,  embracing that is quite liberating and always helps me. Okay now this leads to the title of my blog- honesty is the currency of love- its a price you pay, its a reasonable thing you could practice in relationships  I do. Sometimes, to  the point of discomfort- because I truly would like it practiced w/ me. I have cheated in a relationships, and have told the truth-  not because I was in a bind or that person would find out. Different reasons compelled me- one, I could not live a lie, two, if this person could not or did not want to accept what happened they now have the choice to leave. I know if you have read my other blogs I  have been cheated on, never being told the truth, fear and insecurity where left growing, an open wound when I only wanted the truth. My heart and soul said I should trust my intuitions, yet being told I was a fool when I asked him only led to no longer trusting my intuition. Finally, two years later the truth came out (not of his own volition) it my world turned upside down. I did not know if it was my intuition, or  a crippling new fear (made of dishonesty) and it was just blinding me. It was all very cheap, I suddenly felt short changed, I need my instinctual intuition is as neccesary as a limb. I thought if honesty is the currency of love that I was indeed short changed! If I had been told the truth when I suspected it, I suspect I would have left So, what have I to share w/ you?Be honest, even when it hurts and may not suit you. Not because you have to, but because you want and need to- for that is what you  would prefer others  do for you. The more you respect  yourself  the less you can accept anything else.